pictures of venice are uploaded-

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feeling stressed out and wanna cry. don wanna do this work that can be done :(:(

venice and verona

was amazing!!!

and oh so different from any of the different cities i've visited! definitely beautiful and romantic and has its own unique culture, wat with italian pasta and pizza. venezia gelato and masks and masks and murano glass. lovely!

shopping was great and men are hot. everyone's so friendly and the weather was warm. the city is clean and our hotel was brill so all in all its a great place to be!

pics to be up soooon!

some things on my mind

i seem to have to much to think about these days-

plans for my near future- where to work or study at,
should i go home to work then come back to do my masters?
should i do my masters here straightaway?
if so, where?
is dublin feasible for me?
should i work or study there?
if so, i should be applying now.......

plans for my nearer future- the final exams :(
omg omg omg

plans for the even nearer future- essay and project deadlines,
the analysis of my questionnaires,
the results and discussion,
the 8000 word project plus the damned poster presentation,
the last 3000 word essay,

boohoo boohoo, i hate stress i hate it i hate it!
i have been doing nothing for long enough and my brain just cant cope with all this thinking-

i hate crossroads in life, i hate not knowing what the future holds. i hate making a life-changing decision. i just want to live a think-less life.

but then again this is all part of growing up- decisions decisions and more decisions. why o why. i wish i was 6.

and not to mention that the british weather is really fucked up. like really really fucked. it seemed that spring was here and temperatures rose, the sun shines on everything pretty and its comfortably warm. then all of a sudden, it starts snowing! weather forecast alerts that the north is in for heavy snow and then today it snow dizzled in exeter. exeter! way in the south-east and there's snow! crazy crazy crazy,

i've never carried a brolly out in sg, despite the frequent convectional rains we get so frequently- of course its because im so damn lazy.

but lo and behold, here i will make sure my brolly is out with me. every single time. you know why? because it can turn from bright sunshine to gloomy rainpour in a matter of seconds. and i mean seconds!

and thats not it, my trusty umbrella has to be wind-resistant (like super super strong) or it'll definitely be turned the funny way round. and you need to know when to face your umbrella where (right angle against the direction of the wind) or there's no use trying to have an unbrella cos the top would surely fly off. either that or your arms, if you have trained some muscles. i also have to take care of the metal rods sticking into my eye.

so there,
so much to think of when you go out.
the damned weather.

hence i conclude that i don't like the british weather. make that, i fucking hate the british weather and you wonder why the brits always complain about it. they have every reason to.

on a lighter and much happier note.
i'm going to venice/ verona tmr!!
yay warm weather here i come!!
will take loads of pictures and upload them, cant wait to go and never come back to stress- haha

ok i think this is one epic post to make up for the recent lack of. :)

my brain is dying

i am taking a hiatus from books. haha fucking long that i can feel the degeneration of my brain cells. help.

haha on another note, it was Carol's birthday last friday and we went to the firestone again! cos its such a lovely place for dinner! carol looked gorgeous in her outfit. esp her new dress from bay! hehe pictures!


Happy Birthday Carol!

dinner table

you want boobies?

carol, akua, me, ajobi
akua & devi

cam, maha, chinese princess (haha)
la-las :)

love lost is never love lost

to waimin and yuchu, my dearests. love lost is never really love lost. devi can attest to that- having loved someone for 7 years, a love that was not reciprocated, a love that was not your daily kind of love, a love that only resides in the deepest corners of your heart. a love that might not be the final destination.

new hope always comes- look at devi and how happy she has become. i wish the same upon myself and my other girls- waimin and yuchu!

march the third 2007- 03.03.07

this day is special for us.

we woke up early in the morning for a day trip to cardiff.

we saw 5 beautiful rainbows on our way there. complete, pretty, pretty rainbows. and five. can u imagine. we were so happy and felt so blissful..

we spent a day in cardiff, looking at some rich man's castle and then did shopping.

we came home and had some crab for dinner.

we sat in my room, with the lights dim, the air warm, music playing in the background, staring out my window- waiting for the earth's shadow to cover the moon. while waiting we realised we had such a once-in-a-lifetime day together.

a day that might never happen again in in the far future, after 4 months when we have each gone our separate ways. and we vowed to remember march the 3rd 2007- 03.03.2007 for as long as we can, and its cool cos there are 3 of us to represent this special day. i feel sad thinking that we are gonna part soon. and the best time of our lives are coming to an end. i hope this friendship will not end here, despite how difficult it is to meet up and keep in contact. we want to come together to watch the eclipse when we are 60 and 80 haha.

i love you both, my darlings, my la-las, my camilla and my devi. thank you for this special day, i will remember this in my heart :)


xoxo.

music and lyrics

today me, cam and devi (my la-las: cam says in china in means lesbian partners) and akua and carol made it to the new cinema in exeter, vue, to catch a movie.

i realised ive never watched a movie with my la-las before so this is a first. heh, virgin experience with them. it occured to me to be wierd cos we are so close and do almost everything together, spend most our time with one another and never been to the movies. so we decided to go.

music and lyrics is a romantic comedy therefore we were in agreement for it.

has hugh grant singing and dancing retro so i like it. haha his retro hairstyle and dance moves remind me a little bit of f4 (haha my disgraceful past infatuation of the taiwanese boy band that i shared together with angie, meelin, fiona, magdalene- haha we go down together girls). dao ming si in particular for the hair. haha anyway tho i have no feelings for f4 now, i wonder if i will still reminisce the past like those mature (or should i just say old) woman ga-gaing over alex-fletcher, the has-been singer (hugh grant) of boyband, pop, in the 1980s. maybe not f4 but aniki jin or takuya kimura, would still stand a chance.

anyway i like the song 'way back into love'- nice.... hehe i always fall for these pop, catchy love songs... hmm.. (so i went to go downl**d and have it playing now and starts thinking that the one sung by hugh grant n drew barrymore in the movie is much cleaner and likes it better so went to search for it and youtube came up)

and so now im thinking about what else i wanted to blog about-

thinking..

thinking....

i give up, u know u have all these stuff u want to blog and its gone.

so here are the lovely lyrics and song-

http://youtube.com/watch?v=dU_TmsQvz0Y

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And I you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

i dedicate this song to wai min- i love you babe and i know :)